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This year, I pondered on and worried for my life and future a lot more. I feared over the competition around me, I feared that I may never find my true direction in life nor be the best that I can be, I feared that somewhere along the way I'd get tired of dreaming and wanting. I've not found the answers to my fears, but life goes on anyway, and we've just gotta keep walking and believe that things will eventually work themselves out.

This year, I learnt that you can have so much unfairness dealt to you, and even then, sometimes there's nothing you can do but just to suck it up, move on, and be more careful.

This year, I've become far more judgemental. My friends once said I see the good side of people too easily, this has probably changed. I don't know if this is good or tragic.

This year, I've come to realize how superficial people can be, and let go of people who have never made an effort to be a friend, it wasn't hard to do so when this dawned on me. At the same time, I'm once again thankful for friends who were by my side when I was down, and who loved me despite my flaws.

This year, I saw many of my friends go through breakups, and while I had some emotional downs of my own, I'm glad that I was spared from the far more heart wrenching ones.

This year, I had one of my best academic semesters in the most recent one. I had a renewed interest for Econs after taking IE(B), thanks to Ruanjai. I guess it's true, you do well when you enjoy what you're studying. I hope it gets better from here.

Finally, like every other year, I've taken away awesome memories like RAW, MSF and other random moments with friends and the dancers.

Next year, I'll be very busy at the start of the year, with Bailamos and Intersection to juggle. I thought of taking the semester off to do an internship, so that my after-work hours would be really for me to focus on dancing. But I would be very tired everyday at work, and now I wonder if it's better to have a regular semester and take 4 modules instead. Although I'll need to juggle meetings and consistent revision with a crazy frequency of trainings, at least I'll have more flexibility with my time. We'll see how it goes - that what I always say, fickle-minded me.

I hope the dance clubs will get to go overseas. I hope I'll get to go on exchange, but it's okay if I don't. I was sad over not being able to go to Mexico, I did a whole lot of thinking and came to this, exchange is after all, still just... exchange. I know you get to travel, meet new people, have a hell lot of fun and freedom, and you really really want to go on overseas exchange too when all your friends around you get to do so and they post pretty pictures on Facebook and come back with exciting stories to tell... but it's not something that I'd die without ya know? Money's going to be an issue for me - I don't want to use my parents' money, but neither am I keen to take a loan and start my working life in debt either.

Next year I'll try to blog more as well. Till then, goodnight.